Hi Family, My name's Melissa and I'm a very grateful recovering addict who's guest-posting just for today. First, I'd like to thank my HP for another day clean. Next I'd like to say congratulations to the celebrants and welcome to the newcomer!
Today I will be sharing on: “Faith has replaced our fear and given us freedom from ourselves.” - Just for Today
When I first walked into the rooms of NA I was a lost dead soul inhabiting a body that didn’t care if it lived or died. As I accumulated my first few weeks in NA, my obsession to use slowly subsided. Because I started using at age 8, I began to feel emotions that I never had experienced before like fear and anger. People told me to keep coming that it would get better. I did and the fear and anger began to subside as I stayed cleaner longer, but they never left completely.
The rooms helped me enormously with developing faith that they groups and individuals in NA could help me stay clean. But as I got even more clean time and as I worked from the first through the second step I realized the importance of a LOVING higher power. As my sponsor explained, a loving Higher Power would help guide me and get me through things even when people or meetings were not there. Since my disease was with me working 24/7, I needed to develop faith in a power greater than myself. I observed that the same power that I felt in the meetings and even long after the meeting ended, could be with me even longer if I let it enter my life. My sponsor suggested Acting as If and praying every morning as if I believed.
A miracle began to happen, the dark heavy cloud that had encircled my heart and lingered as I got clean suddenly got lifted and I began to smile. I began to have hope and I began to feel good. The more thanks I gave and the more I prayed for others and for my higher power to show me his will, the better things got around me. Little did I know that developing that relationship and faith in a power greater than me would later help me when I was struggling with chemotherapy at age 26 with 11 months clean. I truly believe that it was my faith in the rooms, in the people in the rooms but most importantly, it was the faith I had in the God of my understanding and my personal relationship with him that got me through that first dark time in my recovery clean and with my body and sanity intact. It was that faith that helped unshackled me from the bondage of addiction and brought me into the light and love of recovery.
Today I pray for all those in recovery, that they allow themselves to be guided to a much better place than they are today through their faith in a power greater than themselves, so they too can be guided to hope and freedom. May it so be! Thanks for letting me share!
Today I will be sharing on: “Faith has replaced our fear and given us freedom from ourselves.” - Just for Today
When I first walked into the rooms of NA I was a lost dead soul inhabiting a body that didn’t care if it lived or died. As I accumulated my first few weeks in NA, my obsession to use slowly subsided. Because I started using at age 8, I began to feel emotions that I never had experienced before like fear and anger. People told me to keep coming that it would get better. I did and the fear and anger began to subside as I stayed cleaner longer, but they never left completely.
The rooms helped me enormously with developing faith that they groups and individuals in NA could help me stay clean. But as I got even more clean time and as I worked from the first through the second step I realized the importance of a LOVING higher power. As my sponsor explained, a loving Higher Power would help guide me and get me through things even when people or meetings were not there. Since my disease was with me working 24/7, I needed to develop faith in a power greater than myself. I observed that the same power that I felt in the meetings and even long after the meeting ended, could be with me even longer if I let it enter my life. My sponsor suggested Acting as If and praying every morning as if I believed.
A miracle began to happen, the dark heavy cloud that had encircled my heart and lingered as I got clean suddenly got lifted and I began to smile. I began to have hope and I began to feel good. The more thanks I gave and the more I prayed for others and for my higher power to show me his will, the better things got around me. Little did I know that developing that relationship and faith in a power greater than me would later help me when I was struggling with chemotherapy at age 26 with 11 months clean. I truly believe that it was my faith in the rooms, in the people in the rooms but most importantly, it was the faith I had in the God of my understanding and my personal relationship with him that got me through that first dark time in my recovery clean and with my body and sanity intact. It was that faith that helped unshackled me from the bondage of addiction and brought me into the light and love of recovery.
Today I pray for all those in recovery, that they allow themselves to be guided to a much better place than they are today through their faith in a power greater than themselves, so they too can be guided to hope and freedom. May it so be! Thanks for letting me share!
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